Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Is it OK to say I'm being selfish?

I am really impressed with (MFP) because it motivates me to be better.  Seeing the success of others motivates me to be better myself.  One of the advantage of the tool is the support community you build with your MFP friends.  I've just decided that I can't have a big support group because I'm not used to having a lot  of women friends.  I grew up with brothers and to this day I don't have a lot of women friends because the word friend is a commitment in my mind.

I don't want to offend anyone but I'm not going to have dozens of MFP friends because I can't be a friends in the real definition with that many people.  I mean a friend takes the time to support and communicate with more than a WTG!

 In the end, I am doing this for me.  I am coming to grips with my age, facing my mortality, facing the loss of parents and grandparents, and making a choice about how I want to maintain my health, my life.  I want to be like my great grandmother who lived to her upper 80s.  I'll never forget her sparkling eyes, her rosy cheeks, her delicate smile.I want to do that for my great grandchildren.  Smile at them.  Hand them a slice of watermelon.
Honestly, I think I'm making it easy to stay isolated because there aren't too many people who want to friend someone who drinks beer while on a diet!

 But that's the point.  I don't want to be on a diet.  I want to find a way of eating that matches my metabolism as I move from the end of my 40s into my 50s.   I know restrictive diets won't work for me.  There has to be balance.  This is my journey to find it and I'm being selfish because it is the very definition of focusing on myself.

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